my life is...

my life is messy.

it's not perfect.

my life is full of hopes & dreams.

there are some accomplishments,

but also disappointments.

there are afternoons spent on the couch

with a novel or reruns of saturday night live

when i tell myself i should be doing something more productive.

in my life,

there are doubts & uncertainties.

but there are also wonderful landmarks & supports

like amazing friends,

loving members of my direct & extended family,

and an incredible husband who shows me he loves me

in a million different ways

and always knows how to make me laugh.

my life is full of mood swings...

sometimes i feel ecstatic

and the next moment i'm devastated or enraged

(usually depending on how long it's been since my last meal).

my life is still shaping itself

and what it will look like

both in the days and years that are to come,

and that's scary.

in my head,

i have an ideal life.

a life full of adventures,

of dreams fulfilled,

of beauty & wonderment,

of moments always put to their best use.

of engrossing hobbies that fill every inch of my free time,

of challenges surmounted and rewards that are rich.

every day,

i do my best

to live this life.

so far, it's not perfect...

(and it probably never will be)

but i'm getting there bit by bit.

and for now,

i try to enjoy every imperfect moment

of my messy, confusing, crazy right-now life

because if i didn't,

i wouldn't really be living...

would i?